Слово "inwardly". Англо-русский словарь Мюллера

but inwardly very depressed.

“Who could want me?” I asked inwardly, as with both hands I turned the stiff door-handle, which, for a second or two, resisted my efforts.

It was all wonderful, all vast, all far removed, and she sank in spirit inwardly and fluttered feebly at the heart as she thought of entering any one of these mighty concerns and asking for something to do — something that she could do — anything.

  The movement was so swift and fierce that Mr Verloc, casting an oblique glance, quailed inwardly.

Snettishane was inwardly pleased, though his sphinx-like visage never relaxed.

He was still so engaged when we were hailed by Mr. Riach from the deck, asking for a parley; and I, climbing through the skylight and sitting on the edge of it, pistol in hand and with a bold front, though inwardly in fear of broken glass, hailed him back again and bade him speak out.