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I invent the necessary excuse for my long absence, and take my part in the conversation, keeping the strictest guard on every word that escapes me, without betraying any appearance of restraint in my manner.
Early in the evening the doctor leaves us to go to a scientific meeting.
For half an hour or more Sir James remains with me.
By way (as I suppose) of farther testing the state of my mind, he renews the invitation to his house in Scotland.
I pretend to feel flattered by his anxiety to secure me as his guest.
I undertake to reconsider my first refusal, and to give him a definite answer when we meet the next morning at breakfast.
Sir James is delighted.
We shake hands cordially, and wish each other good-night.
At last I am left alone.
My resolution as to my next course of proceeding is formed without a moment's hesitation.
I determine to leave the hotel privately the next morning before Sir James is out of his bedroom.
To what destination I am to betake myself is naturally the next question that arises, and this also I easily decide.
During the last days of my mother's life we spoke together frequently of the happy past days when we were living together on the banks of the Greenwater lake.
The longing thus inspired to look once more at the old scenes, to live for a while again among the old associations, has grown on me since my mother's death.
I have, happily for myself, not spoken of this feeling to Sir James or to any other person.
When I am missed at the hotel, there will be no suspicion of the direction in which I have turned my steps.
To the old home in Suffolk I resolve to go the next morning.
Wandering among the scenes of my boyhood, I can consider with myself how I may best bear the burden of the life that lies before me.
After what I have heard that evening, I confide in nobody.
For all I know to the contrary, my own servant may be employed to-morrow as the spy who watches my actions.
When the man makes his appearance to take his orders for the night, I tell him to wake me at six the next morning, and release him from further attendance.
I next employ myself in writing two letters.
They will be left on the table, to speak for themselves after my departure.
In the first letter I briefly inform Sir James that I have discovered his true reason for inviting the doctor to dinner.
While I thank him for the interest he takes in my welfare, I decline to be made the object of any further medical inquiries as to the state of my mind.
In due course of time, when my plans are settled, he will hear from me again.
Meanwhile, he need feel no anxiety about my safety.
It is one among my other delusions to believe that I am still perfectly capable of taking care of myself.
My second letter is addressed to the landlord of the hotel, and simply provides for the disposal of my luggage and the payment of my bill.
I enter my bedroom next, and pack a traveling-bag with the few things that I can carry with me.
My money is in my dressing-case.
Opening it, I discover my pretty keepsake—the green flag!
Can I return to
"Greenwater Broad," can I look again at the bailiff's cottage, without the one memorial of little Mary that I possess?
Besides, have I not promised Miss Dunross that Mary's gift shall always go with me wherever I go? and is the promise not doubly sacred now that she is dead?
For a while I sit idly looking at the device on the flag—the white dove embroidered on the green ground, with the golden olive-branch in its beak.
The innocent love-story of my early life returns to my memory, and shows me in horrible contrast the life that I am leading now.
I fold up the flag and place it carefully in my traveling-bag.
This done, all is done.
I may rest till the morning comes.
I lie down on my bed, and I discover that there is no rest for me that night.
Now that I have no occupation to keep my energies employed, now that my first sense of triumph in the discomfiture of the friends who have plotted against me has had time to subside, my mind reverts to the conversation that I have overheard, and considers it from a new point of view.
For the first time, the terrible question confronts me: The doctor's opinion on my case has been given very positively.
How do I know that the doctor is not right?
This famous physician has risen to the head of his profession entirely by his own abilities.
He is one of the medical men who succeed by means of an ingratiating manner and the dexterous handling of good opportunities.
Even his enemies admit that he stands unrivaled in the art of separating the true conditions from the false in the discovery of disease, and in tracing effects accurately to their distant and hidden cause.
Is such a man as this likely to be mistaken about me?
Is it not far more probable that I am mistaken in my judgment of myself?
When I look back over the past years, am I quite sure that the strange events which I recall may not, in certain cases, be the visionary product of my own disordered brain—realities to me, and to no one else?
Я придумал необходимый предлог для своего продолжительного отступления и принял участие в разговоре, строго наблюдая за каждым своим словом, но не обнаруживая никакой сдержанности.
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